to feel or NOT to feel

you know you are getting to be an emotional wreck when you shed a tear for even hearing that a dog got knocked over by a car. maybe mama is getting old, or that this is just one side of mama that just blossomed from somewhere. mama used to be able to grin through a movie that left everyone else hiccuping into their kerchiefs. now mama will be the first to cry a river!

and not just movies, books are another one of mama's favourite toy that mama is getting more careful of. of the emotional roller-coaster that they offer, i mean. but then when once mama loved adventure and horror stories (from little girls' enid blyton, famous five, nancy drew and hardy boys... to matured's clive cussler, michael crichton, greg iles, robin cook and amy rice), now mama aches for more realistic-sometimes-non-fictional stories that are at once delicious, heartwarming and sometimes heart-tuggingly teary. currently mama is entrenched in tash aw's the harmony silk factory part 2 where the narrator is the woman snow. the prose is definitely of the yin female... thoughtful, dark, gloomy. when things get too heavy, mama stuffs on bananas haha! for papa's sake at least :)

ops! almost 8pm!! gosh i forgot today starts the new amazing race. gtg!! ttyl smoooch!