to feel or NOT to feel

you know you are getting to be an emotional wreck when you shed a tear for even hearing that a dog got knocked over by a car. maybe mama is getting old, or that this is just one side of mama that just blossomed from somewhere. mama used to be able to grin through a movie that left everyone else hiccuping into their kerchiefs. now mama will be the first to cry a river!

and not just movies, books are another one of mama's favourite toy that mama is getting more careful of. of the emotional roller-coaster that they offer, i mean. but then when once mama loved adventure and horror stories (from little girls' enid blyton, famous five, nancy drew and hardy boys... to matured's clive cussler, michael crichton, greg iles, robin cook and amy rice), now mama aches for more realistic-sometimes-non-fictional stories that are at once delicious, heartwarming and sometimes heart-tuggingly teary. currently mama is entrenched in tash aw's the harmony silk factory part 2 where the narrator is the woman snow. the prose is definitely of the yin female... thoughtful, dark, gloomy. when things get too heavy, mama stuffs on bananas haha! for papa's sake at least :)

ops! almost 8pm!! gosh i forgot today starts the new amazing race. gtg!! ttyl smoooch!

i found IT!!

yayy yayy yayy!! I finally found what I want to do for my DBA Consultation :) yahooo! hmm i will keep it to myself for now until I complete the 50-pager by end this yr... in case I jinx it :p

sometimes I can almost feel You...

mama was cleaning house this morning and stopped by your cupboard to change thirsty hippo and saw all your clothes socks shoes bibs mittens blankets toys. pretty soft whites and baby blues. mama misses you.

GONE for the week!

itching for a Seaside getaway!

so here's the plan. Next Mon and Tue are Raya holidays, and the weekend after is our last short sem break before we start on our next DBA "adventure" phuh phuh! we will be spending this weekend in Kuantan (unfortunately no more AFFORDABLE rooms at Hyatt - which is like... why is it the ONLY hotel by the Cempedak seaside???? oh well nvm, we got a good rate at Vistana which looking at the hotel website map, it's by Jalan Sisek which is supposed to lead directly to Teluk Cempedak... so if there is no tall trees and buildings in front of my going-to-battle-it-out-for high floor-room facing Cempedak, mama should still be able to enjoy my Kuantan sunrise in my room with a cuppa, right right??). A distant relative of papa's getting married this Sunday (and same time mama's fav cousin is also getting married in a Melbourne garden wedding swoooooon).

...then.. then?? we'll be back home on Mon. So 2 days back we started getting all sorts of crazy idea to hop into another short no-brainer trip (and mama really mean it, like mama wants even my drinks taken care of no joke!). First was... hey how about shooting to Taman Negara after the wedding. Complication. People sharing our car can't go. Oh HK!! No.. boring. Been there done that this same season. Bali?? No fun just 2 persons. Langkawi... come on! Cameron... yikes again??? Genting... and do what? Oh how about this... Singapore! ..nah concrete jungle no thanks. we finally found out what was itching us... we miss sunny seaside (sounds funny since we are living in a freaking island ourselves!)... but you know what? we just want to go to a hip seaside like Krabi or Koh Samui.

We are hoping Beautiful Planet can arrange a special trip for us to Samui, and let us know fast. Like tomorrow. We miss the old times of starting a trip at 3 in the morning and drooling for 10 hours in a minivan bumping from one town to another country (so evidently, flying will be our last option. just zaps the fun out of traveling huh!)... big BIG hoping BP can swing it :)

rowan trees and beliefs

Company of Liars, p379-380: "I followed her, but my footsteps faltered as I drew near the rowan tree and saw... Dozens of dried foetuses dangled in the breeze - lambs', calves' and human babies'... As if she could see what I was staring at, the woman spoke...'These past years, more and more women have miscarried. Cattle and sheep are losing their offspring too. Evil spirits enter the womb and the woman becomes pregnant, but these offspring are born before their time. If their bodies are buried, the spirits are set free to enter the womb over and over again, preventing the woman from carrying a human child.'" by Karen Maitland (2008)

...hmm, interesting...

back to School...

...and there i was happily ambling along in my 2-mth break... working till i sprain my fingers, lapping up novels into the wee hours (and realized shoot, i have less than 3hrs before i gotta go back to work groooaann!!).. strutting into property fairs and showrooms and show houses and show units like we were really planning to buy (which we almost did in one crazy second)... asking to test drive the Accord, Camry, CRV acting so real we almost kidded ourselves along with the toooo-friendly salesman... going up to Gurney and QMall GCS counters at all hours of the weekends until we forgot which day and what time the tickets were for... shooting up Cameron, flying to visit friends in Vientiane and said yes, we are going to Kuantan for a relative's wedding (whom we wouldn't even recognize if they bumped into us at the roadside) in a blink... oh glorious glorious glorious holidays....

zzeeeaaaaaaaaaaappp!!

Got a mail 3 days ago to get our supervisor and proposal ready for Oct 3.

a very special Visitor today

writer of Upcountry paid me a visit... oooh!
...is someone playing a prank on me??! :)